Why are Pregnant woman emotional?

Beats me, but we are! We have a zillion things running through our minds and we are tired and achey on top of that. Doctors have no idea the weight of their words, but one thing is for sure - fear is not of the Lord... so I have to temper everything based on knowledge, prayer and whether fear is involved or not. We really do live in a fear driven world.... and boy does it place a role in the decision making of a pregnant woman over due.

I have been studying for almost 2 years so that I can understand the mechanisms of pregnancy, labor and birth. I have come to understand the standards of care in Western Medicine and medicine overseas as well. I know the risks of everything under the sun... and guess what, every thing carries risk. So in the end, I have to rely on the Lord. I have no control, the doctors don't have as much control as they'd like, and no one ever knows the outcome of their decisions - but we all have to live with the decisions we make. And isn't that the rub?

So here I am at 40 weeks and 5 days. I have gestational diabetes that is under control via diet. I have a big ole baby in my belly - estimated about 9.5 pounds, and my mother in law who traveled to HK from America is leaving Friday. But none of these things mean that my labor needs to be induced. There are always risks with every pregnancy, but I am listening for are signs that I am actually needing medical intervention... not that there are risks. There is a risk every time you get in your car, but who ever thinks... better walk to work today because its raining and the risk of a car accident is great today... of course not, who would walk to work in the rain?

So I am writing this post to let everyone out there know that I am normal. I do have fears, I am stubborn, but not to the point of risking my baby's health, but I am also informed. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, but when you are being manipulated (by default or on purpose) by your doctor into having pitocin or some other intervention that takes all the joy out of birth (for me anyway) its best to be informed. Know why they want to do what they want to do.... term is still defined as 37-42 weeks, so I am not completely off my rocker. All this to say, and to beckon all other pregnant mommies in my shoes, being pregnant and making decisions is not easy. I feel the pressure from many sides. I have to re-evaluate every day, sometimes every hour. And i have to contend with my doctor, who seems to have more fear than I do. But having a close friend who is an OB - I understand why. I just have to keep on keeping on, praying and asking the Lord for wisdom. Talking things through with Matt and trust what I know. Right now, all I know is that I did not have peace about going into the hospital to be induced today... which is what my doc wanted. An OB nurse here in HK that I met at church said it well... I am in an induction culture here in HK... docs here are used to intervening and leaving things to go naturally makes them nervous. Some trust in sword and spears, but we trust in the Lord Almighty!

At any rate, we have decided to wait until 41 weeks. That is 2 days away. The hospital, interestingly enough is FULLY BOOKED for inductions on Thursday... and Wednesday, so we get an extra day out of it. We'll go Friday morning if Peter hasn't arrived yet. I am so thankful for the few folks who the Lord has sent - out of the woodwork - to minister to me. For confirmation. And what did Matt read this morning in his quiet time? Wait for the Lord and keep his way! We are waiting, although anxiously sometimes, we wait.